Here's to new beginnings.
Don't get me wrong, 2015 was filled with wonderful things. There are also some not so wonderful things that I am fully willing to leave behind. I feel as though 15 years happened in 2015. Many changes, mistakes, achievements, and friends (gained and lost) all helping to develop me as a person.
15 Wins of 2015
Immediately after the new year began it was time to hit the ground running. I invested so much time in others, but now it was time for me. I put together a workout routine and was pleased with how well I stuck to it the first 6 months of working a full time job. As a management trainee of Enterprise-Rent-A-Car, I had much to learn and little time to sleep. There was a BIG balancing act that needed to be adjusted and I found myself getting there pretty steadily.
In 2014, I already celebrated my graduation from JMU, but I received my diploma (finally) in 2015 and was super duper stoked to show it off! After all, JMU was the place I learned the most about myself.
~at least this far in my life~
~at least this far in my life~
A major event in the midst of it all was Super Bowl 49! My entire family and I had the pleasure of seeing the Seahawks and Patriots play in Arizona. It was a blast! We had passes for the tailgate beforehand and our seats were pretty incredible.
Being that I work at the most successful rental car agency, I had to be at work in all weather conditions. This meant snow. I used to drive this adorable sports coupe and I LOVED that car. It was my first car, I took great care of it, and it was front wheel drive. So after almost spinning out on my way home from work on a snowy morning, I decided to invest in something for myself and I bought a new car!
Work hard and you will be rewarded for your hard work. This far into my career, I have attended 7 awards events and have been promoted because of the results I kick my own ass to get.
I went out on a limb and tried something I had never expressed interest in... I went to a Caps game! Turns out, hockey is awesome. You can be pissed off, turn around and hit some guy in the face because he was too close to you, and it's cool. Who knew!?
I gave myself permission to just be. It's important to recognize that you're doing your best. Feelings are very rarely logical. It's not fair to feel guilty for trying to find balance in your life. I personally expect a lot from myself and it's because I know I am capable of so much. But, it's also important to love myself for what I do accomplish and not what I think I have to accomplish. We can't fully appreciate being happy until we allow ourselves to feel sad sometimes, too.
I forgave myself for making mistakes. I let go of the worries that don't matter. I allowed myself to be at peace with my own heart and soul.
I fell in love with someone who cares about me as much as I care about him. And that, is something to cherish and be proud of having done.
I finally left the country! It was only Prince Edward Island, Canada... But it was awesome! It's neat just being able to experience anything different and new than what we do on a regular basis.
My mom and I completed a mindful triathlon. We gave strength to ourselves and to one another and did something to re-center our beings. We cared for our wellness, and that is most of all important.
Sometimes random trips are the best. I made plans in May for October to visit a friend in Sonoma, just to see what it was like. There is never a "good time" so you have to make time to have a good time!
Being an alumna is weird. You think you're ready to handle going back and that it's not going to be different, but it always is. You knew the day would come when everyone had graduated, but you didn't think it would ever be you! I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but it definitely doesn't stay at all the same. It's totally ok to go back, but try not to remember things better than they were, just enjoy the moment you're currently experiencing.
One of the biggest and most self fulfilling things I did in 2015 was to accept an apology I never got. It's hard to do that. We hold on to things because we feel like we are owed something for it. Maybe we are, and maybe we aren't. But I can tell you one thing is for sure, resenting the person for what they have done or who they are does nothing. It's like poisoning yourself. They will never know, and you're the one who feels the angst and pain from it all.
And, most importantly, in 2015 I lived. I gave myself a break when I gained a few pounds because at least I enjoyed the company and the delicious food, for which I skipped my workout. I believed that everything would work out okay, so I stopped obsessing over the little things so much. I also helped others achieve their goals and I found out I make a difference in the world simply by being in it, and that's something to be proud of in my book.